When I added Coaching to my Speech Therapy practice:
I am a person who has a huge curiosity about and passion for self-growth, self-understanding and self-love. My own journey in self-love started in my 20’s when I decided to have a crush on myself. Looking back, I thought having a crush on myself was about buying myself flowers and other nice things. But, I discovered along the way that it was really about getting to know myself, listening to myself, and trusting my needs and wants.
It was in my 30’s when I started receiving healings, that I started noticing huge transformational changes within myself. I learned to be ok being spiritual without boundaries, learned to hear my inner knowing again and I started to understand and feel worthy of self-love. I started to see old blocks and wounds for what they were and noticed how they played into my day to day interactions. I started releasing those wounds from being enmeshed with my understanding of my true essence. My anxiety chilled out some and I started seeing myself as someone deserving of self-love and self-forgiveness.
Then, when I first became a parent, healings came up even more quickly and clearly. In times of stress, I heard my old wounds come out in frustrations with my children. The more work I did to release my hurt and shame, the more I was able to recognize when my wounds came up in my interactions with my own children in our own day to day.
The most frequent example was when my children, as typical toddlers do, would ignore me. When this happened, I would notice this place in my stomach tighten sharply. It was more than just an annoyance or an eye roll, it was my inner child feeling ignored in desperate need of guidance and love. Even just in noticing my own wounds and my inner child, the shame shifted some. With time and practice, I started to bring in self-forgiveness. I learned to trust myself and choose my words with my children more consciously rather than feeling like a terrible mother, constantly beating myself up and turning to outsiders for expertise. With the healings, I was able to repair connections faster, hold myself accountable for my actions, and remove my own needs so I could better see and meet the needs of my children.
Shortly after my first child was born, I found myself following a gentle pull to become a life coach. I started with becoming a HeartMath Coach. I wanted to pass on the healings I received and share things that were starting to integrate. Although I didn’t fully listen to the life-coach call at first, the nudge was so persistent that my speech therapy work quickly shifted into work as a Social Coach at a progressive charter school in California. Soon after that, I started training for the Self-LOVE Process with my healer. When our second child came into our lives a few years later, I actively followed the coaching call and completed my certification as a life-coach.